Ellen Pompeo talks Chyler/Lexie’s exit

TV Guide Magazine: I can still hear Meredith crying, “Lexie’s dead,” out in the forest. It seemed so real and heartbreaking. You did something in those scenes that was devastating. How difficult was it for you to play?
Pompeo: Thank you. It’s not fun. I actually said to my husband the other day, as a younger actress you love the torture and the pain. Acting can be an amazingly cathartic thing — especially for young girls. And then when you get older, settled and very happy in your life, you don’t want to go to work and torture your soul and feel that pain. I used to be so into that, but now when someone dies it takes a lot of work. Doing it once or twice isn’t hard. It’s having to do it more than twice that gets challenging.

TV Guide Magazine: Did you get to have a moment with Chyler Leigh to say, “Hey, thanks for playing with me these last few years as my kid sister and I’m going to miss you”?
Pompeo: You know, to be honest I’m not really good at goodbyes. I don’t like them. It gets very dramatic on set. When Chyler died at the table read, everyone was bawling. I just can’t take it. I did the tearful thing at the table read. As actors, we’re dramatic and all prone to drama, so I try to say, “Hey, I love ya” and try to run away.